This morning, after dropping Matt off at work, I was stopped @ the light on hammocks and 104th, and I couldn't help but notice a young man, dressed in what looked like a work uniform, hair tied back in a pony tail, running across the street, towards the right side of me. He was carrying a blue bag, and although I couldn't see his face, I can tell he was determined, but thinking: "man, I can't be late again". To my right, the bus from that route had just made its turn, and as I looked at its end, I imagined reading on its tail the words: "We brake for NO ONE" from the 80's movie Spaceballs.

I chuckled! My curiosity, and desire to see this young man make it got intense in the spot where I stood, so being the first car stopped to make a left, I drove up a little. The bus stopped, and the people, a total of three, who were there ON TIME, got on....

"How many times have I missed the bus?" This was the thought that crossed my mind. How many times, have I procrastinated so much, that I could not finish what I began, or didn't give it the importance it deserved so I missed the deadline. Yeah I was being harsh on myself, because sometimes I have tried very hard, but obstacles got in my way, and no matter how fast I ran, or how hard I tried, those obstacles set before me, got the best of me... Or did they?

No, they made me CHANGE. The more things change, the more things stay the same, blah, blah, blah.... Hey, if things really changed, if I REALLY did something DIFFERENT, then the RESULT would be something NEW!There is this song from the 80's (yeah am an 80's kid) called Hazy Shade of Winter from the Bangels...and it begins something like this:

Time, time, time

See what's become of me

While I look around

For my possibilities'

I was so hard to please

I used be so proud of being so much about Me- until I realized: it's NOT about Me at all.....

Look around

Leaves are brown

And the sky

Is a hazy shade of winter

Hang on to your hopes

My friend

Change comes to those who dare to recognize that they need it and are willing to discover that the seasons do change, even in Miami.

To conclude, my long haired friend who almost missed his bus, made it.

I got teary-eyed.

Now if you personally know me, you know I don't run out of tears; but the fact that he Almost Missed it, and didn't, made me VERY GLAD.

"'Those who keep their heads on straight will teach the crowds right from wrong by their example. They'll be put to severe testing for a season...When the testing is intense, they'll get some help, but not much. Many of the helpers will be half- hearted at best. The testing will refine, cleanse, and purify those who keep their heads on straight and stay true, for there is still more to come..."-Daniel 11:33 (MSG)

Ur not gonna grow spiritually if u don't really want to...
Ur not going to see a change unless u start doing things differently...
Ur not gonna see fruits if u don't plant the trees...
U can't complaint about stuff later on if u didn't do anything to solve it while u could...
--
Stay the Course~

Currently this is the song that ministers my heart. It defines what we lose and at what cost, when we decide to take on Jesus' name and TRULY follow Him...This song is a blessing. If you have not heard it, I highly recommend.It's called: "I Will Wate My Life" by Misty Edwards

I will waste my life

I'll be tested and tried

With no regrets inside of me

Just to find Am at Your feet

Let me find Am at Your feet

I'll leave my father's house

And I'll leave my mother

I'll leave ALL I have known

And I'll have no other

I am in love with You

There is no cost

I am in love with You

There is no lost

I am in love with You

I wanna take Your name

I am in love with You

I wanna cling to You, Jesus

Just let me cling to You,Jesus

Say goodbye to my father, my mother

I'll turn my back on every other lover

And I'll press on, yes I'll Press onI'll

Say goodbye to my father, my mother

I'll turn my back on every other lover

And I'll press on, yes I'll Press on

I am in love with You

There is NO COST

I am in love with You

There is NO LOST

I am in love with You

I wanna take Your name

I am in love with You

I wanna cling to You, Jesus

Just let me cling to You, Jesus

I wanna cling to You

Sometimes in relationships, (marital, friendships, families) things are not quite what we expect, and we get discouraged or hurt, even angry. Sooner or later when we have said ALL, but really have not said ANYTHING AT ALL, we decide to make our own little book of records, and guess what? Yup, we go back, back, to the very smallest thing the person with the conflict at hand did to us, and REMEMBER ALL the “ins” and “outs” of the conversations, the looks that were crossed, even the hand gestures. C’mon, you know this is true.

Now, why would someone do this? Perhaps because by making the other person look bad, you can cover any defect you might have. You keep records to refer to them. You say “I won’t forget that!” you are true to your word and at the right moment, you pull out your little book of records and you start to read.

You recall every bad incident.

Did you know that in that precise moment you are like the devil when you do that? For the devil is the accuser (Rev.12:10) When You POINT THE FINGER, you are not being Jesus, you are being the devil.Yup, there’s no exaggeration there. There is no in between or it was just a little accusation. So you wonder, how did I get here? How did I get to this prison where I allowed myself to be fervently used by my adversary?

Truth be told, you held in too long.“Oh but, you don’t understand, my husband/my wife/my best friend/my cousin/my business partner, they really hurt me/let me down/disappointed me”

This bleakness, sadly, often becomes bitterness. It’s always easier when you have the upper hand, but trust me, you don’t want to be in the hot seat, when that book is reversed on you. The word of God says he who lacks wisdom, ask and it will be given (James 1:5) And get this, Hatred stirs up dissension, but love covers over all wrongs (Proverbs 10:12).

Is this your scenario? My answer to you is this: this is your free ticket for intimacy with God. Allow this mishap to allure you into really knowing your Creator. Who knows if this was not an opportunity for this encounter to take place in your life? He holds ALL the records of humanity, BUT EVEN HE, will not pull out the book of your wrongs, but highlight ALL your RIGHTS!

Don’t hold it in!

Speak, but speak your words seasoned with salt. It is a dangerous thing to hold all that repression inside. And life is too beautiful, there is more to come into your relationship, don’t drown it with weeds, but garnish it with fruitfulness. Don’t wait to point the finger, instead, embrace the possibility of UNCONDITIONAL LOVE.

Love never gives up. Love cares more for others than for self. Love doesn't want what it doesn't have. Love doesn't strut, Doesn't have a swelled head, Doesn't force itself on others, Isn't always "me first," Doesn't fly off the handle, Doesn't keep score of the sins of others, Doesn't revel when others grovel, Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth, Puts up with anything, Trusts God always, Always looks for the best, Never looks back, But keeps going to the end.

I Corinthians 13

The Message

I Surrender!

Tuesday, March 31, 2009 at 12:50pm
For as long as I can remember, I have always been a fighter! It is not easy for me to be a quitter. My mom told me that when she found out she was pregnant with me, she was afraid my dad will tell her to get an abortion. They were not married yet. She hid it from him till she was about five months. I thought maybe that’s where my survival instincts came from, but the truth is it is in our nature to have that capacity.God, in his infinite wisdom, created us to be more than conquerors, with power that comes from his loins to govern and walk in authority, confident that He who began the good work in us will surely finish it. We have the warrior instinct, as HE is the Great Warrior, and we have the peace instinct as He is The Prince of Peace. One time my pastor taught us something that changed my life. He said this: “If God defends you, why defend yourself? And if God doesn’t defend you, then why defend yourself?”

(Sounds like an oxymoron)- But it penetrated.If we all knew this truth, do you think the world would be a better place? In other words, We wouldn’t have to “defend what’s mine”, or want to “stand out”, or desire to be “better than” or keep record of wrong, or be prideful, or think “I am not accepted”…or better yet, to think “I have to Know more, or let everyone know that “I Know it all”…

You feel me?Now, being a woman with “some” maturity I have discovered something VERY important but VERY taken lightly: There is POWER when you surrender!I will say it again: THERE IS POWER WHEN YOU SURRENDER! Many times, for things mentioned above, and by my natural instinct to be a “fighter”, I had not learned to really surrender.I know how to surrender in the sweet presence of the Lord, where everything is calm, cool and collective, peaceful and blissful. But the truth is, I had not learned to surrender in a hostile, arrogant, contending and prideful environment. You know something? It is there, in that MESS, where we should really apply our natural instinct to fight! The good fight of wisdom, prudence, meekness, and humbleness. Where the love of God that is in us should be noticed. We gain NOTHING by having the last word.

To surrender is not the same as giving up! When Jesus was in Gethsemane, worried and stunned, I would say scared and hurt, he said this: "Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me; yet not my will, but yours be done." If you didn’t know, When Jesus said these words; He was agonizing as He knew the cross awaited Him. He, just like you and I, did not want that sour taste in His mouth. If He had thrown in the towel, we would not have redemption, BUT JESUS, SURRENDERED! He said: “not my will, but yours be done."I don’t know what problem you are dealing with at this moment. Maybe everything is going against you, or maybe you are paying the price for something you didn’t break? I want to invite you to look at this not as a problem, but as an opportunity to surrender.

SURRENDER and you won’t be so tired. Surrender and you will have more joy. You will see how your enemies fall, on their own accord. SURRENDER and you will not be left to shame.

(I promise you)"Because the Sovereign LORD helps me, I will not be disgraced.

Therefore have I set my face like flint, and I know I will not be put to shame." Isaiah 50:7

“ No todo lo que confrontas se puede cambiar, Pero nada se puede cambiar hasta que lo confrontes “.

“ No todo lo que confrontas se puede cambiar, Pero nada se puede cambiar hasta que lo confrontes “.

1 Corinthians 15:36

What a foolish question! When you put a seed into the ground, it doesn’t grow into a plant unless it dies first.

One Night with My MAN...

Feeling Romantic, in a spiritual kinda way. =)

Written 3/7/06

Current mood: loved

Oh that you would kiss me with the kisses of your mouth
For your love is better than wine
There is no other heart you feel but mine
My king is sitting at His throne
He patiently awaits my arrival
I start to proceed into my moment of destiny
Taking off the garments of impurity hastily
His perfume ignites my being
I feel saturated at the beauty my eyes are seeing
He is my garden that has been locked to me ,
and spring that has been sealed for me
Who I'm I that I should feel this
Who I'm I that He should look at me
And HE stretches out his hand
And my thoughts and Blurs He begins to understand
I let go of inhibition, because to get to this place was a great transition
but here we are face to face
I am undressed before Your eyes
You see the real me...You LOVE ME
You've been waiting on me for ETERNITY
All so that You could give me EVERYTHING
I lay down at your feet and tell You without hesitation:
TAKE ALL OF ME!
selah

Lunch vs. Blogging

I am sitting in front of my lap top...and chose to stay and blog away rather than actually taking lunch. I hope i don't get hungry later....

I have a little bit of a headache due to my new pair of glasses. I went to my optometrist last week and got sold on multi-vitamins, and Omega Fish Oils, as he passionately lectured me on the importance of nutrition and how seldom we get these talks and lectures form our own family practitioners. I must admit I was impressed. So, yeah I got sold! I bougth two bottles of multi for Matt, (my husband), and my two older kids, and a bottle of the Omegas.
Um, not sure exactly what are the results i should be expecting to receive, but if I feel any different will definitely tell. Anyway, the point is my glasses are on too tight!